One of my favorite groups is Gentri. Many of their songs have been a lot
of help these past weeks. This morning their song “Home” came on and gave me
such a sense of hope and peace. The words they sung spoke to my soul and hit
all my emotions perfectly. While I was listening I closed my eyes, and could
picture Colt singing the verses to me. (I often like to think he would have
been a great singer like his dad). I felt a few tears fall down my cheeks as I
took in all the words and let them fill my heart…
Sudden I left you, so far away
Unknown my day of return
If I could write you, words that would stay
I'd give you a promise to hold
That we never end
Dry all your sorrows, though bitter they be
Our parting be a moment that fades like a dream
And soon dear you'll find me where the stars meet the sea
Safe in the whisper that calls you home to me.
Your heart though it's aching, burdened and frail
Longing to follow behind.
But if I could give you, a gift that remains
Love that endures through all time
Never to end
So dry all your sorrows, though bitter they be
Our parting be a moment that fades like a dream
And soon dear you'll find me where the stars meet the sea
Safe in the whisper that calls you home to me.
If I could show you (just) for a moment beauty unseen
Peace that surrounds you (and) hope that leads you home to
me.
And soon dear you'll find me where the stars meet the sea
Safe in the whisper that calls you home
That calls you home
That calls you home to me.
I do long for Colt, I have great sorrow trying to live without him. But I
know, with a sureness, that my time here without him will be like a moment. I
think that when I return home I will laugh at how impatient I was here waiting
to be with him again. I know that he is often with us, and have had several
friends and family members tell me stories of feeling Colt with them. He is now
one of the angels, helping our Father in Heaven lead us home to be with them
all again. Heavenly Father, with the help of his angels are in every little
detail of our lives. I have personally felt them with me every second in the
days after Colt’s death. These words ring so true to me:
“If I could show you (just) for a moment
beauty unseen
Peace that surrounds you (and) hope
that leads you home to me.”
I believe that if we
could see our ancestors and posterity who surround us, we would be in awe. We
are not alone, we will never be alone. Although I cannot physically see and
touch my son, I know he is with me. That doesn’t stop me from wishing time to
move a little faster, but it is a huge comfort. I am learning what it means to ‘hold
him in my heart’ while I can’t hold him in my arms, but I know that one day I
will. One day our family will again be complete. Until then, I will keep
listening to this song, and find peace as I live with faith.
<3
ReplyDeleteI cry every time I read one of your Blogs. Thank you for sharing your experience with us. My heart aches for you and your family. I so appreciate your testimony! You are a beautiful person!
ReplyDeleteOh Braquel, it is so hard isnt it. Each tear, each sigh, each desperate longing thought will be compensated a hundred times over with joy when you see Colt again.Hold on strong.It is so hard to wake another day with them. It is hard to even conceive how the world can keep going. Doesn't it know something precious was lost? Thank God for tender mercies and the PROMISE of forever families. <3
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